1. internship’s been gg well so far. first day was extremely confusing & frustrating because some ppl weren’t very helpful but thank god for AAD & KLIM. i’m also glad tt i my fellow MMC interns (jamie & joshua) + their friend caleb + dickson + kyla. are extremely friendly and nice. jamie, joshua & caleb are leaving in a mth though so i need to go find new friends. haha.
2. hb’s been awesome. hvnt been able to see him much cos of work & exams for him. but we try. he’s only one tt makes me happy these days. i’m so thankful for him.
3. the parents hv been hvg some rly bad issues with each other & it’s slowly driving me insane. i’m not kidding.
i’ll update again when i feel better.
“10 points to the boy who came to suprise me with my favourite things tonight, at my house… all the way from work. i thought he was lying but i looked out of my window and there he was. :) :) :) sorry for being such a baby these past couple of days. goddd, i’m such a lucky girlll.”
the next time we have one of our stupid, pointless arguments - i’ll go read my lj archive. i think i just fell in love with him all over again. i think we both forgot along the way. we forgot how far we’ve come & what we’ve had to go through to get to where we are now. i can’t imagine my life without him. i don’t want to. he’s amazing & he makes me really, really happy. i’m a lucky girl. three years, almost. wow.
“I feel like i have a lot of things to say tonight but i’m just stumped. I dont know how to start. I dont know how to say it without sounding stupid or annoying someone. I feel dumb & a little sad that at the age of 19, i still have trouble defining myself. Like i havent discovered myself yet. It’s a strange feeling to suddenly realise this. I still dont know what i want to do with my life. I dont have anything that i’m truly passionate about. I have no drive to do anything in my life.
Also, i dont know if i can survive on my own. I get very defensive abt it and i tell ppl that i can survive but rly, i’m not so sure now. I dont like talking abt leaving because honestly i am scared, rly scared. So i just pretend (srsly i need a new coping mechanism) and pray that the day wont come so soon. My parents get annoyed sometimes because they think i dont care enough but i do. I’m just scared. I know that there’s SKYPE & MSN and all those kinda things but it wont be the same. I realised the other day, that the one thing that makes me really sad is that the people here (family&friends) will move on with their lives and then they’ll have new memories. New memories that i WONT be a part of. And that kinda sucks a little. RAAAAAAAH. I dont wanna go. :( But this will be gd for me. Right? Oh well.
Ok, so i think i’m done. Maybe i’ll write another one tmr. HAHA.
Toodles.”
i’m so glad i have all these things written down. i was really scared. 2007 was definitely a rough year. but it was also when hb & i just started dating. good times. :)
hee hee hee. i got the internship. :D & i start on monday. i am SO excited. moneymoneymoneyyyyyyyyy $$$.
the only thing that bums me out is that i won’t get to see hb tt much this summer break. :( but oh well, we’ll find time.
and yes, i am home. & the weather has been fab. :D :D :D
i’m finally packed & all set to go. right now, i’m just waiting for willie to come inspect my room & then aunty olivia & uncle kadir will pick me up & my stuff to go to theit hse. i’ll be on the plane back home in less than 12 hours. be still my heart. i am telling you, i will nvr get sick of this. the best part of this all is the coming home, forever and always. it just makes everything worth it. the excitement of seeing my parents & hb & the buds rly kills me everytime. so e x c i t e d. :D
in other news, i was on the bus home ytd. & i was looking at the pretty trees & flowers along the street & i realised how lucky i was to be able to do all this. i always get emonemo on busrides, i dnt know why. sometimes i have to pinch myself to make sure that this is real. that i’m actually here… in australia. & it’s been two years! i srsly hv a love-hate relationship with this place. i love how pretty & calm & open it is. but i hate that i can’t share it with my loved ones.
so yea, i think i deserve a pat on the back for getting through this yr. i’ve had a lot of fun this sem & made a lot of new friends. next yr will be better, hopefully. <3
the next time i post sth, it’ll be from singapore! :D
1. i can’t believe i’m done with yr 2 of uni.
2. i hate packing up my room for summer. where does all this shit in my room come from?
k bye.
oh wait, A s i a o n e replied. I have an interview with them on Monday for an internship. I’m excited but at the same time insanely nervous. I want the internship but I feel like I suck at interviews. SO HOW NOW.
